oh, college.

 i usually walk to class and just listen to music but recently i've been listening to the figh club audio book. they're a great way to pass the time. so right now i'm downloading some more books so listen to when this is over with. i'm pumped. :)

last night i had a dream that i was in a horror movie. i was about to be killed by a zombie when i woke up (it was kristen stewart. bahaha.). weird. trevor thinks its the sleeping pills i take.. he might be right.

also, congrats to the class of '09. even though i only liked three of you, maybe four.
i feel like i just graduated.. this year went by fast.

this is the room one afternoon i knew i could love you
and from above you how i sank into your soul
into that secret place where no one dares to go

-king of carrot flowers, pt one by neutral milk hotel

right now i should be in dc, getting out of the black cat and talking about how wonderful margot and the nuclear so and so's were.

instead, i'm doing math homework.

thanks.

it would definitely be marley. my dad wanted to name me that but mom liked megan better.
before that damn dog movie, i'd never really heard it before except bob marley.. which was my dad's inspiration.

girl, you're my angel, you're my darling angel
closer than my peeps you are to me, baby

she was there through my incarceration
i wanna show the nation my appreciation

-from angel by shaggy

i used to adore that song thinking it was the sweetest thing ever.
for the love of god..

any guys who thinks i'm closer to him than his "peeps" can just never talk to me again.

miriah, shay, bree,and i were going to go camping. we all walked to the cabin together and for some reason i didn't take any stuff with me. everyone was talking and we were having fun. jalyn and i think miriah's parents where there (it wasn't actually them, they looked like kerry's mom and dad but they played miriah's parents). anyway, we're all sitting in the house and all i could think of was that i had to go back to miriah's house to get my stuff and i was thinking of a way to tell her. all of the sudden a silver car with a navy blue license plate pulls in. no one recognizes him so miriah's mom stands up to tell him he has to leave. (he looked like a guy from the daily show with john stewart, the middle eastern guy..) he insists that he just needs to refill his water bottle and pushes on through the house. as he gets into the kitchen i stand up and notice two other guys that no one else is seeing. they have the same bottle but they're walking around the house. (the only one i noticed was this white guy that looked familiar, too.) i just know something is not right and start to quickly walk out of the house, as i pass everyone i quietly but sternly say "get out". the second i'm outside i start running past the cars and there are a few of the silver cars and the tags were "new mexico" or "new york" but they had a random word replacing "new" (something cops wouldn't notice), then i definitely knew something was wrong. as i passed the cars i turned around to see the first man outside pointing a gun at me and he shoots at me. it was all slow motion and i could see the bullet move past me in slow motion; and be seeing it, i was looking at myself like i was someone else or it was a movie. after that i stumbled past the cars and dove down a hill with lots of trees and bushes. all i was thinking was that as i was falling i couldn't lose my phone so i could call my mom and get help.

i woke up with my heard racing and feeling extremely scared. i feel weird knowing that i barely did anything to get people out of the house, i just knew we had to be discrete about it. i hope everyone in my dream made it out okay.

another dream:
i was in high school and when i went to the bathroom i saw naked ghosts.

that's pretty much all i remember. weird as shit.


maybe when i eat grilled cheese too close to bed i have weird dreams.

i got a lovely letter from shepherd telling me i had to choose a major. i have no idea what to pick! it's too hard. sometimes i don't even know if i want to be in college. maybe i'll just marry some old rich man now and hope for the best. i guess i'll go with business or accounting.. too bad i'll eventually have to take calculus. gross.

i just sat on my glasses, too. lucky me. i called mom to tell her and just laughed. i just need to find a way through lab without glasses or lying about wearing contacts.

but break's going to be here in a few short days! :) i have some homework but it seems like nothing since i know next week i'll be at home catching up on sleep and being with some friends that i miss so much! it's also the week of the irish spring festival! sweeeet. there's nothing better than being from ireland, wv. :)

i'm so nauseous. i feel terrible. i know my speech is going to suck and be too short. i just think i'll get less points off for the length than skipping class and putting it off entirely.

ugh.

it doesn't help that all of my grades suck ass. i'm doing terrible in everything. maybe only one A and i definitely have a D in history. the rest are probably c's.

who needs scholarships anyway?

morgantown today!

i totally have a girl crush on scarlett johansson. she's hot in he's just no that into you. :)

Yoshi Lurve: yesterday at like 2 i was coming back to the dorm
Yoshi Lurve: ..in the morning
immortalfire89: what did you do now
Yoshi Lurve: and this guy yelled at me to walk with him
Yoshi Lurve: it was scary
immortalfire89: uhhh
Yoshi Lurve: he had a painted baseball bat
immortalfire89: what the hell?
immortalfire89: like a student?
Yoshi Lurve: i was like... ohhh fuuuuck!
Yoshi Lurve: yeah, he lives in kennahood
Yoshi Lurve: but he asked if i like what he made (the bat)
immortalfire89: lol
Yoshi Lurve: i asked what he did with he
Yoshi Lurve: he said.....
Yoshi Lurve: .... beat people
immortalfire89: whaaaaaaaaat
Yoshi Lurve: i almost peed
immortalfire89: i would have peed on him

LOLOLOLOL!
that made my day. :)
oh, drunk college boys. :)

I never felt too good but in this world who would
I was always thinkin’ somethin’ wasn't right
But then you came along and helped me sing a song and
now I feel ok I hope it can stay- this way

You know we've got a good thing goin' and I don't wanna see it end
You know we've got a good thing goin' and I don't wanna see it end
Are these the good days that I've heard so much about-
there goes the heartbreak that I can live without
I've been so frustrated, bitter, mean, and jaded
I've taken for granted all the things I've got
But now that you are here this anger disappears
and I feel happy too this is sappy but it's true

You know we've got a good thing goin' and I don't wanna see it end
You know we've got a good thing goin' and I don't wanna see it end
Are these the good days that I've heard so much about there goes the heartbreak
that I can live without

-good thing by reel big fish

i'm completely in love with this song right now. :) it's so simple that it's amazing. i don't need some complex song to say how i feel.
..not that these are my feelings right now, but it's a cute "i like you" song. :)

i got my streetlight and reel big fish ticket today!
i'm stoked.

happy new year!
:)

looking for alaska by john green is to be made into a movie!

heh, ellie i see you posted this before me. i'm glad this is spreading.


i just love what he has to say. it honestly gave me cold chills.
some people disgust me. why does it matter who can marry? isn't love all that matters. for anyone who disagrees with this and me, i want to thank you for having our country take a step back.

i'm in love with college! even though i haven't made a million friends, i'm okay. i don't need a lot to make me happy. and i love my classes. they're all pretty easy and interesting. my chem teacher is amazing. :) i love going to his class. :) i wish i had it everyday.

i also think i'm in love with a boy! :) who'da thunk it? :)

people suck recently.
i hate it.
but oh well.
europe was fun.
and the beach is going to be killer.
don't miss me too much! :D

This has been the longest day of my life.

For school, I was outside all day 'training' for the Envirothon. It wasn't too bad but I'm pretty tired now. And I got a sunburn. Summer's almost here! :D

Then I came home to about ten emails about my granma. She died exactly one year ago. It was so sad. I cried as I read every one. It was just memories of her. She was so loved and I still can't believe she's not here. I just feel miserable now. I hate feeling this way. I just need sleep.